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Sun, Dec. 26th, 2004 11:19 pm
karma police arrest this man

heres a comment i just posted in david's lj in regard to one of my worst decisions:

jesus christ i used to be very immature... "look at me, im billy, i use big words to make other people look dumb! worship me for the god that i am!!"... how lame is that. i have people who tell me that my "serve" up there ^^ is something major, something huge, but i read it now and i think how retarded it was to write that... how pointless it was for me to jump in an arguement over something i really should have left to the people involved... i ruined one of my best friendships, said a lot of childish things, and probably made a bigger ass out of myself than needed be. lord almighty how insignificant this all would have been if i had just left it alone... and now, having invoked god's names, ill end my comment. well, not after invoking it for the third time:

-billy-

kidding, im just kidding... im not really god

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thats my entry. its true. apparently a lot can change in 4 months. half of what i say in there isnt even true anymore. hell id hate to think of life without raini right now. but theres nothing i can do to reverse what happened. the only thing i can do now is show how much ive changed. id like to think the billy that made that post was the one of the last actions of "high school billy," which would make the current me "college billy" i assume? i dont know. id like to think that im growing up being away from home, finding myself as it were. i try to be less "asshole-like," but its so engraved in me its hard to do. but im doing better.

anyways today david, matty g, and i went to the galleria and the guys helped me build a bear for raini. its super cute, and super expensive. but shes worth it. david went out to eat with his mom tonight because shes going out of town tomorrow, so we had to cut our night together short. that kinda sounds gay... anyways so im here at home messing with my ipod or something and david calls me and says that kevin called him and wants to take him to the house of pies tomorrow night, and that i should come too. i dont know whats going to come from this, but i hope good does. in the spirit of the holidays ill be buying a sack tomorrow for hopefully some good times. we'll see. thats really all i got, so i guess ill head it out

-billy-

Current Mood: contemplative contemplative
Current Music: Radiohead - OK Computer

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